There are no winners and losers. There are only Learners.

Most things in this world do not need to be reasoned out.  Perspective is an interesting thing.  A change of perspective is equal to change of mind.  That is my savior.

Yesterday I came across an article on the internet "Why 'letting go' and 'detachment' can be pitfalls on the spiritual path" http://theyogalunchbox.co.nz/why-letting-go-and-detachment-can-be-pitfalls-on-the-spiritual-path/   It is an interesting read and it started with a question I have held in my mind ever since I became aware of the concept of letting go and releasing. 

The question: If you have never bonded with your mother and so have never experienced secure attachment in a primary relationship, how can you work with non-attachment? And letting go? When you have never really experienced having anything to hold onto?

Since this is question is so relevant to me I just wanted to share how I finally dealt with it. I have always wanted to blog about it but never found the most appropriate time to do it.  This time is as good as any because I am in a continuous process of deep transition.

Childhood abandonment is a trauma that needs immense self love, self understanding, self inquiry and a deep desire to find peace with it.  It requires a DECISION to let the feelings of pain and rejection go and a COMMITMENT to honor that decision.  As I studied more and more about the spiritual life and how illusion played in as the overall factor in relationship to the game of life, I began to understand this world and the identity I am wearing now is certainly not what I am.  Every belief and rule in this world has been made up by many minds of illusion (mass consciousness) and the belief system carried down the ages.  I eventually began to understand that my 'coming into this world' and the suffering and hardship thing is a product of my mind.  In essence I am perfect and pure and so is every other living soul.  In truth there is no 'coming into this world', or a mother and father, or family, etc. etc. etc. Its a very hard concept to follow and it is not easy.  Its a process and a releasing and letting go moment to moment.  Meditation, contemplation and self inquiry served as my tools and  opened up a deeper understanding of my small self and The Higher Self.  I only  knew one thing for sure and that was I am not alone. I am surrounded by unseen protective and loving forces. Whenever I have needed protection and divine intervention in the most intense and fearful situations in my life, help has always ALWAYS come in the most mystifying ways the moment I asked for it.  You have to ASK.  That is the key.

I finally came to feel from the core of my being that I belong to no one and no thing. I stand alone with my Mother-Father Creator.  Therefore, it only stands to reason everything else is false and untrue ... all part of the game of life and illusion to be played like any other game except that in this game there are no winners and losers. There are only Learners.  You learn that you are your own teacher and student and in this life, the learning for me is to REMEMBER who I Am and who I am not and playing the role of abandonment and overcoming it is all part of the 'reality show'.  I began to understand the unity of Life in all things.  The learning never ends.  No matter what happens, I am loved more than I will ever be able to comprehend in this body.  But I am not in a hurry to prove anything.  There's nothing to prove and no one to prove to, not because there is nothing and no one, but because each is part of the web of life. Though some continue to hang on to the belief of their own self righteousness, that too is part of the game of life understood by the Soul alone.  The human body cannot understand beyond the human body.

A beautiful web indeed.  Perfect, delicate and golden. And so it is.

~ Lavina ~