Staying in Alignement

Things always seem to slide back to the 'old' when I forget my Identity as "I AM".  It almost feels like a dare to say "I Am God" when I try to affirm myself back to Super-consciousness vibration.  It needs a strong foundation of belief, confidence, faith and strength to bring myself back to the centeredness of my Being. Asking the Angels to help me back to the recognition of my True Identity opens up my mind and heart to receive, remember and realign with The Source. Once pure life begins to pulsate through every cell in my body, I can literally feel the transformation and the Light warming my body and mind with Love.

There are so many moments in the day when one feels exhausted, tired and washed up. Taking a moment to rest, breathe deep for a while, calms, rejuvenates and revitalizes me. Self nurturing and Self Love are key elements to remember always. I like that my Heart holds all the answers I need to keep connected to my Soul and move through the day joyfully and through the night rest in God.

~ Lavina ~

There are no winners and losers. There are only Learners.

Most things in this world do not need to be reasoned out.  Perspective is an interesting thing.  A change of perspective is equal to change of mind.  That is my savior.

Yesterday I came across an article on the internet "Why 'letting go' and 'detachment' can be pitfalls on the spiritual path" http://theyogalunchbox.co.nz/why-letting-go-and-detachment-can-be-pitfalls-on-the-spiritual-path/   It is an interesting read and it started with a question I have held in my mind ever since I became aware of the concept of letting go and releasing. 

The question: If you have never bonded with your mother and so have never experienced secure attachment in a primary relationship, how can you work with non-attachment? And letting go? When you have never really experienced having anything to hold onto?

Since this is question is so relevant to me I just wanted to share how I finally dealt with it. I have always wanted to blog about it but never found the most appropriate time to do it.  This time is as good as any because I am in a continuous process of deep transition.

Childhood abandonment is a trauma that needs immense self love, self understanding, self inquiry and a deep desire to find peace with it.  It requires a DECISION to let the feelings of pain and rejection go and a COMMITMENT to honor that decision.  As I studied more and more about the spiritual life and how illusion played in as the overall factor in relationship to the game of life, I began to understand this world and the identity I am wearing now is certainly not what I am.  Every belief and rule in this world has been made up by many minds of illusion (mass consciousness) and the belief system carried down the ages.  I eventually began to understand that my 'coming into this world' and the suffering and hardship thing is a product of my mind.  In essence I am perfect and pure and so is every other living soul.  In truth there is no 'coming into this world', or a mother and father, or family, etc. etc. etc. Its a very hard concept to follow and it is not easy.  Its a process and a releasing and letting go moment to moment.  Meditation, contemplation and self inquiry served as my tools and  opened up a deeper understanding of my small self and The Higher Self.  I only  knew one thing for sure and that was I am not alone. I am surrounded by unseen protective and loving forces. Whenever I have needed protection and divine intervention in the most intense and fearful situations in my life, help has always ALWAYS come in the most mystifying ways the moment I asked for it.  You have to ASK.  That is the key.

I finally came to feel from the core of my being that I belong to no one and no thing. I stand alone with my Mother-Father Creator.  Therefore, it only stands to reason everything else is false and untrue ... all part of the game of life and illusion to be played like any other game except that in this game there are no winners and losers. There are only Learners.  You learn that you are your own teacher and student and in this life, the learning for me is to REMEMBER who I Am and who I am not and playing the role of abandonment and overcoming it is all part of the 'reality show'.  I began to understand the unity of Life in all things.  The learning never ends.  No matter what happens, I am loved more than I will ever be able to comprehend in this body.  But I am not in a hurry to prove anything.  There's nothing to prove and no one to prove to, not because there is nothing and no one, but because each is part of the web of life. Though some continue to hang on to the belief of their own self righteousness, that too is part of the game of life understood by the Soul alone.  The human body cannot understand beyond the human body.

A beautiful web indeed.  Perfect, delicate and golden. And so it is.

~ Lavina ~ 

The Illusion Field of Flowers

My appreciation continues for the pulsating and rhythmic reminder of how blessed, loved and cared for each of us are.  This simple fact gets lost in translation very often.  If it is for the higher good of all, that which manifests on the physical plane, becomes a very precious gift because that gift is not for the individual alone but a constant sharing with the rest of the world by keeping one's vibration high and therefore letting the energy of love move and spread in all direction. There's nothing to be done really - no preaching and teaching.  Just a be-ing. Since all minds are joined, the invisible energy from my Higher Self will flow and connect at the heart and mind level with others.  There is only Divine Mind and therefore this is the surest way to consciously touch on the live connecting thread of unity consciousness.

As I sit on my reclining chair and gaze up at the cool night sky, I offer up the old tendencies of my old life that still keeps showing up when my mind is not gainfully engaged.  It is a reminder to me that the inner journey never began and therefore can never end, and, that the choice always lies with me to remember this Truth.  I was feeling very unsettled because  I was beginning to feel dragged down by some old stories that I used to tell myself in the past which usually ended up in confirming to me what  a looser I am.  I always believed the big mouth of my small self.  But this time,as I sulked away and held a one woman pity party, I suddenly snapped out of it!!  Just like that!!  A deep sense of relief overcame me.  I got it!  At last the reminder of my True Being lit up my mind naturally and without any effort.  Something has truly changed within.  The agony of 'trying to change' is over.  It has became less of a struggle now.  Wow! never thought that would happen!

I can never go back to the part of me that whinged, whined, moaned and groaned about everyone else's hand  (except my own) in my misery.  I realised how easy it was to cheer up others and tell them big spiritual stuff about life and all things wise that they were supposedly ignorant about.  That is the biggest fool's game ever. You know the end of a lost cause when you begin to see it as that - a lost cause. The only conscious reason I will walk over to the field of illusion is when I begin to believe that the field of illusion is growing flowers and that I can actually 'walk' over to that field!  What an illusion indeed.

With Inner Blessings,

~ Lavina ~ 

Looking Up in Benediction

Nothing can be more enchanting, more mystical, more miraculous ... more of everything good, beautiful and bounteous ... than standing on the rooftop of my home and just looking up at the endless vastness of the sky at night covered in stars ... the gentle cool breeze flowing through every cell of my Being making my head spin and my heart warm in total gratitude for my life and the endless possibilities that is offered to me every moment.  My life is simple and filled with all that is Spirit.  Sometimes I see It and sometimes I don't.  I'm constantly engaged one way or the other always mindful of a Power and Presence that is far far beyond me, beyond the heavens I look up at, and, look up to - so far exceeding this universe, and yet, It is within me too, prodding me, prompting me to make my ordinary little duties "extra"-ordinary so that my life shines like the stars above.

As I look up in benediction, all the events of my life of that day just float up into the vastness and eternity of heaven and disappears to God knows where ... Perhaps they find their way to The Divine Essence to be absorbed into the nothingness that we essentially are.  Who knows?  But I feel lighter and uplifted ready to be snugged in and loved by my welcoming bed to lull me into deep sleep that will actually take me up into the heavens my eyes witnessed.

And here I Am once again into a brand new day glistening and shinning with new possibilities.  And I Am hugely grateful for the Love of The Divine which is what I Am.

With Love & Inner Blessings,

~ Lavina ~

The Breath of Spirit

When I breathe deep, I Am acknowledging my Sacred Divine Self.  

When I breathe deep, I Am opening the lines of communication between me and my Creator.

When I breathe deep, I Am asking Spirit to commune with me while I listen quietly.

My Breath is the link to The Holy Breath, The Life Giving Source that exists within and around me.

Spirit Breath, Holy Breath, Source of Life, Giver of Life .... what more do I need than Thee?

The word "awakening" is the most played out word in the world today.  Its interpretations are varied and almost ridiculous to the point that if you follow all the information about it in the world, you will go nuts. Atleast that is what has happened to me. I've simply gone nuts listening to most of them.  Spiritual Discernment is a virtue to hold on to when engaging with the world. There are many who give you a spiel about what words like "enlightenment" and "awakening" mean which ofcourse comes from their own personal inspiration and understanding which is a good thing so long as they do not force their ideas and beliefs on an unsuspecting, "unenlightened" and "unawakened" seeker.

I am not discounting the truly awakened.  You don't hear much of them because they don't advertise themselves.  People go to them and seek them out.  They are absolutely and completely happy in their own Bliss and willing to include you in their mantle of love if you are seeking it.  Christ Awakened ones are the ones you have to look for in this world.  If you have found one (no matter which part of the world), then Grace has found you for sure.  

I have met many online "awakened" folks and they have thankfully given me a first hand lesson on what not to be on the spiritual path.  What they have propelled me to do however, is to sink deeper and deeper into my own Divine Self and look for all of my answers there.

In my mind and heart, awakening happens every moment.  When I take a deep, mindful breath, I FEEL Spirit just spreading Itself in every cell of my being and beyond.  I feel relieved, released, safe, joy, love and ready for the next moment which is already now in this moment. I am not concerned about another because I see all others melted into this ONE Blissful Being.

What happens in my heart, no one can know unless you communicate with me through your heart, in which case the modalities of communication are completely out of this world.  Don't try putting words to your communication.  You will only bosh it up and make a mess.  If you want to speak to my heart, my heart is open - come join me.  In there all my defenses are down and I am completely open and vulnerable.

With Inner Blessings,

~ Lavina ~

Dance & Clap!

Life is truly a dance.  Some days you get the steps perfect and some days rhythm and harmony are out of the window! It bodes well for me to remember always to stay detached whatever the mood.

These days my self learning has gone up a notch.  I'm more eager now to gain deeper wisdom from my experiences not just for my own life to feel magnificent and worthy, but because I will have more meaningful and state-of-the-heart answers for my grandchildren.

My younger grandson (4 years) loves it when everyone claps for him on completion of any 'task' assigned to him.  His mother says she has aching hands by the end of the day!!  How wonderful for us we have a STAR in our family! 

Being @ Home With Grace

Home is where the heart and hearth is.  If you have found even one person whom you can call HOME you have found GRACE.  Grace has never been lost.  It IS and has always been ever present.  Grace has to be found within oneself, recognized and acknowledged for you to truly understand the magnitude of Divine Blessings.  Home is Family.  Family is where you are dwelling right now.  You carry its essence everywhere. And if you have found just one person who somewhat personifies that for you, then you are truly in alignment with Grace.

Prayer

Deep prayer breaks you down.  It melts you.  It lulls you to a place of rest and at the same time invigorates and infuses you with cosmic vitality and energy. It calms you and brings images and feelings of quietude, streams of peaceful running waters, calm seas and flowing rivers into your consciousness.  It brings coolness to the mind and a gentle breeze that sweeps the heart of all the pain and suffering of the moment.

Prayer is necessary.  It quietens the Soul and brings you face to face with The Divine.